Korean series are amazing. The dialogues are just too perfect, the screenplay is too good. Story lines are close to reality and shot so naturally just like its a usual life.
Favourites so far: Something in the rain(The script is excellent, oh the dialogues are unbeliveble), Crash landing on you(is a nice rom-com). Vincento Cassano(thriller and funny). There are many other series I have not completely watched like Its ok to be Not Ok which has highest rating with highest paid actors. The storyline is good too.
On totally a different topic, I miss my dad for sure. Am I ready to talk about it? I guess not. It for sure shattered my life physically and emotionally for many reasons. Its been more than 5 years that I havent stopped thinking about him. I still think about him. Its almost 6 years but the pain is still unbearable. May be this is what sudden death can cause. I can relate to so many people right now who are going through this pain due to covid loosing their loved ones in no time. I have gone through that and it takes gazillion years to get over it. I am still not over it and I dont think I will ever be over it. But I have learned to live with it.
Even if someone brings up my dad I get really uncomfortable and I feel really uneasy. I just dont want to talk about it to anyone as to how I feel it. Its just way too painful.
I cant get over that day when I woke up in the morning in US, I woke up to this news and I just froze for a moment. I didnt know what to do. I just stood there numb. I dont know how I managed to book the ticket and immediately fly down to India. I know I had to but those dreadful moments still haunt me. Ofcourse my life turned upside down in terms job and other stuffs . I have figured it out and I have sorted all the things but I was miserable.
Sudden death in a family creates a huge havoc, the emotional trauma it creates with within the family is unexplainable. I dont think even my enemies have to go through. The damage a sudden death can cause to the family is unbearable and only those people will understand who has gone through that torture.
Unfortunately, so many people are going through that right now. All I can say is that only time can heal them. They will never be over it but they for sure can only get to live with it. It affected me so badly. I left my US life came back to India, my H1-B extension didnt get approved, I was struck in India without a job. I couldnt distract my mind. I had nothing to distract my mind. I gained a lot of weight.
Ofcourse I am kind of far better and passed through that stage now. But still it was hell. I just pray no one has to go through that. I get scared to hear any more death stories right now. Because it kind of brings back my experience and it hurts me so badly even the thought of it.
Nothing much can be done about it. You only slowly learn to live with the pain. May God give strength to everyone who is going through this.
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