Containment zone to Micro containment zone

 Finally, we got an update from MC to step out of the flats for running and cycling. Phew! Felt so good to run outside. Thought of cycling in the evening wasn’t sure if they allow or not as the gates are still closed. But seemed like many were biking today so I can take my bike out tomorrow. 🏃🏼‍♀️ 🏃🏼‍♀️ And  🚴🏻 . I only have to master swimming. If I master swimming I can easily do traithlon. Anubhav Karmakar (the fastest amateur runner) is a triathlete. No wonder that guy has amazing endurance. 

I fell in love with Korean series so much that I started researching about Korea. Ofcourse being a runner I looked for any races. I found out an interesting thing that Seoul Marathon is the 2nd oldest marathon after Boston. Ofcourse Boston being the oldest  Seoul marathon is 106 years old. That was surprising and am not sure why we only have Tokyo in the world Abott majors and not Seoul!! Anyways, I should combine my run plus plan a vacation. That’s what any runner do.

I was just thinking runner’s life is soo different from normal people life. Our morning starts at 4 am if you are training for any races. Mostly the catch ups, biryhday celebrations, Birthday treats of runners is always a breakfast. Ofcourse we do have house parties, post run parties in pubs but usually those are brunch parties and infact PM annual party closes by 9 pm Lol

Runners life is so different. It’s not that they don’t love late night parties but usually they get over early. Last jan post Pacemakers party all the gals came to my flat and we didn’t sleep we just partied the whole night. They left at 7 am next day.I don’t even remember how many times we made coffee that night lol. These kind of sleepovers do happen but not very often. 

Man! what did covid do to us?No runs, no races, no parties, no house parties. Maximum house party happened at my house only. Being a spinster that’s an advantage. God knows when things come back to normal. 

Will I ever run a race again? Why not I will have to visit Korea and run Seoul and may be catch up with my new crush Jung hae in( as if he is waiting to meet me LoL. That guy is a brilliant actor. His acting in something in the rain is fantastic. He is the most underrated actor in Korea unfortunately!!

Something in the rain part 2

 The more I watch “Something in the rain” , I relate myself to the female lead character so much.  When her past relationships didn’t  work for her, She is mostly made to feel as if it’s her fault. There is a scene where she explains herself as to she just didn’t do anything wrong nor that the guys were putting out their best in those relationships. How she being in relationship was compared as so bland. Wow!!it reminds me so much from my past. I knew the guys I dated weren’t putting their best in the relationships but I was still hanging in there because I genuinely liked them. I thought that’s what relationships are for. You can’t expect everything to be perfect. I thought true value of a relationship is to just find a way to be happy even though you won’t get everything. I realised how stupid of me to be still hanging in there and the worst part of all I can’t believe that I chose such kind of guys. It’s similar to what this character goes through. At one point she says, I can’t believe I was with this guy. Sometimes I come to think of it. I feel the same way. 

I can’t believe I was in such kind of relationships, I should may be thank God or may be I was lucky it didn’t work out. I don’t know what future holds but this series is really an eye opening in many ways in terms of the relationship. 

Anyways, coming back to lead role male character, he is just a perfect guy. He is realistic in many ways. I really fell in love with the lead male character. I don’t know if it’s really possible to be able to find such kind of guys in reality. I sincerely truly hope such kind of guys exist.Hmm, he is not too far off from reality. It’s pretty close to reality but in the current generation do such guys exist? Hmm I have no idea. I can’t believe I dated , I was head over heels and persistent with guys who had so many issues, what was I thinking? I swear what was I thinking? 

 

 

"Something in the Rain" - Obession is an understatement...

 I am really obsessed with this show. I dont know I just cant stop watching it. Namma bengaluru weather isn't helping in anyway. The weather is perfect for a series like "Something in the rain" I dont get to watch it much during the day but whenever I cook and clean I leverage this time to simultaneously watch this show. I dont know what has gotten into me that I cant stop myself watching this show.

The series touches a lot of different topics:

1. Even though the daughter is good and more responsible just because she is not married is always a huge issue to the family and parents!

2. The sexual harassment, breaking the taboo like dating younger guy- how the world looks at it.

3. The friendship betrayal as the lead character female is a child hood BFF with the male lead character's sister and how that friendship suffers. 

4. The relationship between the sister and brother, how they are brought up differently by the parents and why the brother always finds fault in everything her sister does.

It resonates a lot with my life may be. Yes I think it has almost touched all parts of my life and almost what I have gone through at each stage. May be thats the reason.

While I was watching this series it suddenly kind of reminded me of Yogita and how our relationship soured :(. Ofcourse I miss her as a great friend. Everytime the friendship between those two girls were on the screen, it remided me a lot about Yogita(Yo!). Ofcourse we had a different kind of a problem. Its just too tiring to even talk about it here. Should I or should I not? Ofcourse what happened was very unfortunate and I had to go through that terrible thing for no fault of mine.  But what really upset me was Yogita almost stood by me and she backed off in the last minute. It really really upset me back then. I showed my frustration at one point and later it just took a downfall. I tried to talk to her many a times.

Lets not get into the reason as to why and how we ended up here. But I wish things can go back to normal between us. That whole incident upset me back then and even more upsetting was to loose friendships like Yo's.  I believe time has healed both of us. I have totally forgotten that incident. Lot of things have changed since then. The strange part Yo did after that incident especially when I was the ginny pig she cut ties with everyone from run club.  Anyways I miss her as a great friend.

I didnt stop running just because some moron had no idea about how it meant to someone. I thought running was supposed to get people together and not break the relationships but some people can be so blood suckers they can suck energy out of you everywhere. I didnt stop running because of that incident. I started running because I love running why the hell should I stop something because of some idiot created a bump on my journey!

Me and being so emotional fool

Being emotional a biggest failure in the current world? I mean of course I do have a practical approach to the modern day dating but with a lot of traditional inclination too.

Like I never ever believed in this caste, community, dating a divorcee, dating older guys, younger guys etc, etc. So I practically believe in all these revolutionary approaches but in an  old fashioned long term relationship way. When I say old fashioned way I believe that "True love" and having an emotional quotient in relationships and believe in long lasting relationships than one night stands(casual relationships). I have nothing against casual relationships but it becomes way to mechanical but actual real relationships take time to nurture the relationship by putting an effort, meeting, being in live in. I dont know whether I believe in the concept of marriage but I for sure believe in dating, commitment. 

Anyways, I dont know why the fuck am I talking all this thing. I may be watching these Korean rom com series a lot and Bangalore weather is making me this romantic? I dont know. I am just binge watching this "Something in the rain" in a repeat mode that I just cant stop myself watching it. The more I watch it the more I like it. I dont know at some point I became so emotional that I cried watching the "finale".

I am such an emotional fool and considering how practical the world is am way behind in the current dating scenario. Like my situation is I am way too modern in my thoughts but with my strong traditional foundational thinking. 

I keep having this argument with my friends also. I just feel am stupid that in this world I still believe in all this crap like "LOVE" shit after what happened with my past relationships.

I think I can relate myself to this character in few things but not in all. I just relate to her in terms of the past relationships where I was with wrong guys and thought I was in love. But am not immature like her to do something which always gets her in trouble to hate this guy. But omg I am so in love this guy's character. This role is just too perfect. I think he is not the shahrukh khan of romance but he is definitely a guy with realistic attitude. I just cant stop thinking about this character and the dialogues are so perfect for the situation between these two characters. The physical intimacy is unbelievable(Ofcourse Sex matters in the relationship, attraction matters)

Wow I am such a fool. I am a total loser who believes in true love in this practical world!!! God save me LOL

Sudden death and the havoc it can create in family.

 Korean series are amazing. The dialogues are just too perfect, the screenplay is too good. Story lines are close to reality and shot so naturally just like its a usual life.

Favourites so far: Something in the rain(The script  is excellent, oh the dialogues are unbeliveble), Crash landing on you(is a nice rom-com). Vincento Cassano(thriller and funny). There are many other series I have not completely watched like Its ok to be Not Ok which has highest rating with highest paid actors. The storyline is good too.

On totally a different topic, I miss my dad for sure. Am I ready to talk about it? I guess not. It for sure shattered my life physically and emotionally   for many reasons. Its been more than 5 years that I havent stopped thinking about him. I still think about him. Its almost 6 years but the pain is still unbearable. May be this is what sudden death can cause. I can relate to so many people right now who are going through this pain due to covid loosing their loved ones in no time. I have gone through that and it takes gazillion years to get over it. I am still not over it and I dont think I will ever be over it. But I have learned to live with it. 

Even if someone brings up my dad I get really uncomfortable and I feel really uneasy. I just dont want to talk about it to anyone as to how I feel it. Its just way too painful. 

I cant get over that day when I woke up in the morning in US, I woke up to this news and I just froze for a moment. I didnt know what to do. I just stood there numb. I dont know how I managed to book the ticket and immediately fly down to India. I know I had to but those dreadful moments still haunt me. Ofcourse my life turned upside down in terms job and other stuffs . I have figured it out and I have sorted all the things but I was miserable.

Sudden death in a family creates a huge havoc, the emotional trauma it creates with within the family is unexplainable. I dont think even my enemies have to go through. The damage a sudden death can cause to the family is unbearable and only those people will understand who has gone through that torture.

Unfortunately, so many people are going through that right now. All I can say is that only time can heal them. They will never be over it but they for sure can only get to live with it. It affected me so badly. I left my US life came back to India, my H1-B extension didnt get approved, I was struck in India without a job. I couldnt distract my mind. I had nothing to distract my mind. I gained a lot of weight. 

Ofcourse I am kind of far better and passed through that stage now. But still it was hell. I just pray no one has to go through that. I get scared to hear any more death stories right now. Because it kind of brings back my experience and it hurts me so badly even the thought of it.

Nothing much can be done about it. You only slowly learn to live with the pain. May God give strength to everyone who is going through this.

I just started watching a new Korean series called Vincento Cassano. It is a  comic,  crime based series, I wish it was dubbed in English, it was hard to watch with Eng subtitles. But the romance or the storyline between the obvious hero and heroine is nicely done. 

Not sure how many people have watched Holidate but I kind of like the concept of the movie and after a long gap a good rom com(I believe after Friends with Benefits) I kind of liked Holidate.

Now coming to my curious case these days. The mountain I kind of want to get to know him personnely. I am infact interested in him. But he is the one who didn't show any interest. I kind of stalked his Twitter account ;-). Some of his messages are so cryptic( why would anyone even write it on status if no one should understand it lol) He used to run I believe it was mentioned on his status somewhere. I think one interesting thing is that I believe some how my gut feeling says that he believes that women are as equal as men. I dont know the kind of feeling his profile gave was he doesn't seem to be a  male Chauvinist. I wish he is not. But you never know with men. Not every men in India believes in the concept that all women should have same rights as men. I just cant stand men with double standards. 

Couple of observations so far, He is extremely intelligent, he is well read and I still feel he tend to read a lot and educate himself on variety of topics. Sometimes I feel his life just revolves around work and no fun( too bad!) he should try to get a break once a while and cut a slack for himself.

Good part is he believes in fitness and healthy food habits and loves trekking which is the same goal around fitness. May be its a digital detox. It kind of also shows that he is adventurous. Being advent ours is good.

I think he doesn't open up to everyone for some reason. If he is comfortable I think he will talk everything under the sun.

I am sure he has dated women and some of the cryptic messages meant some hidden meaning. Why would he post it on twitter of all the places? duh!!!  Anyways you cant trust these Delhi guys. On top of it he is a Scorpio God knows how many one night stands, threesomes are there. May not even be worth dating. It is better to be careful with Delhi guys. He didn't seem like those kind of Jerks but I don't know. The Delhi track record doesn't seem to be good in the matter of relationships. No offense but I just don't want to get into mess which sucks the energy out of me and especially those who are fake and not honest.

The reason why I am curious about him. He is a Scorpio. I get along very well with scorpions. I know for a fact that if they are really close friends with you they will always wish good for you. My best buddy Harminder is a Scorpio. We get along really well. I can talk to him anything say anything and he never judged me and even in work environment he has never backstabbed me and he has stood by me even if people mentioned the other way around(You know office politics and there are chutiya people) I think this guy seems like a good guy. But its better to be careful and least of all who knows he might be in a relationship already that's why he didn't show any interest. Why waste time on such?

Above all, I am still unable to understand why the hell did he remove me from Insta. It would have made more sense to just meet up for one date and if you dont like then it totally makes sense. Who just wants to add and then remove from Insta. Crazy fellow. Anyways its his loss to even meet me for once not mine :). 

One thing for sure I just cant put in an effort and let my heart break again. I am not in any way going through this pain . If something is meant to happen let it happen. Lets see what the future holds.

IT IS RAINING CATS and DOGS IN BLR

 BLR weather is the best during summer too. When it gets extremely hot its guaranteed that it will start raining within a day or two. whatever said and done nothing can beat Bangalore weather but it used to be even best once upon a time. The drastic change in the weather since last 13 years is unbearable. Sometimes I feel I wish the IT ramp up should have never happened. This whole urbanization made more greedy people take advantage of city and more than Kannadigas the city is driven by non Kannadigas. Basically, we are the most easy going, no nonsense kind of guys, it became easier for the neighboring state people to come over dominate the state. It is unfortunate but this is the fact :(.

Anyways, work is going on, Its not how great it used to be when LB(my EX super boss) was there. He is a visionary. He is extremely funny. I really enjoyed working with him. Since he moved out things are definitely challenging but that's how it is. It is surprising how the downfall happens when there are no visionary leaders. 

I strongly believe that it matters whom you work for. Ofcourse there will be organisation and things like that. But it really matters whom you work for. Anyways thats ok.

This wake up -cook -Clean -repeat has become a painful process. There was a point my cook got so worried for me that, he constantly called me and checked with me how I am managing lol(He is worried more than my mom) Yeh madam kya khayegi, kaise manage karegi. He was telling me that he will cook at his place and get it for me. I said "NOOOOOOOO". Ofcourse he is very clean, his hygiene levels are by far the best I have seen. I am more of a more vegetables in everything person and he is the only one who gets it and he cooks for my taste. I can just show him any recipe on Youtube he will prepare it accordingly except a few south Indian traditional dishes somehow he just doesnt get it.  I love Ragi mudde once in a while. Have that proper traditional meal but I guess for that I have to go to my mom only(LOL) other wise he is really a great cook. He can make awesome soups, few great pasta recipes, I havent trained him to make  middle eastern or mexican yet though. Honestly, I cook pretty descent but I hate to cook everyday. I dont enjoy it as much. I prefer to outsource these stuffs and focus more on running or rest or may be just chillax. Cooking is the last thing I would love to do lol. My mom ofcourse is a great cook. I love everything she cooks. I think most moms are great cooks.

Whats on my mind today? Definitely a guy :P.  I am curious about this one guy(real smarty pants-definitely nerd-yup the mountain man)  anyways he didnt show know any interest, then why bother? Ya but I felt it would have been a good match. We could have atleast gone on a single date before he was so unresponsive. Anyways, chuck it(Sour grapes!!!)

Biggest thing on my mind? My friend pinged me and asked me when am I going to be in US. I told him , considering the current situation I have no clue at this point. Well plan was to move to US completely last year with proper L1- A but then it was a total downfall. US isn't issuing any visas only at this point. There was a great opening at an ecommerce giant(ofcourse the company name is a no brainer) at US location but there is no way I can travel now  and take up the job. My friend can easily refer me and vouch for me but now is not the time. He was asking me about the same. I told him let the dust settle down. But I so badly wanted to take up that opportunity and move back to US. Like I said atleast I can focus on my growth and career. Being in a US based company you need to build network  and trust me growth is always faster if you are in the US. 

Fucking Covid. What an amazing timing you have got.  It is what it is and whatever happens, its for the best. Thats what I am hoping :) 

Why the blogs? Its more like a memoir to myself

 Why sudden interest in writing blogs? Hmm.. I realized that I stopped writing my journal long time ago and It was high time to start writing whatever comes to my mind. Ofcourse I cant write all of it on social media. I am hardly posting anything these days over there. I wanted to have a social media detox, I am out of FB for quite sometime. Anyways, hardly anyone reads my blogs so I can be what I feel like in my blogs. I really hope people dont take a sneak peak into my blogs ;) its mostly for myself and my own journal.

Desperate times calls for desperate measures{I didn't mean I have to buy a vibrator  ;) considering the current situation I should buy one I guess ..LOL} I meant I started running inside my flat itself, I know its crazy. It was very very challenging to run in a 30 -40 m loop but like I said have to find a way to keep going at it. I only ran a 5K and I dont want to start having ITB due to the sudden turns and so another 3 kms I walked. I hope the people who stay below dont complain that I am creating a mini earthquake on their roof lol.The APR roof isn't sound proof(How stupid of them to charge such exorbitant prices and not have sound proof wall and roof!!). 

Weekend was usual routine of cleaning, cooking but yes I did order take away especially my tres leches from Magnolia Bakery. Anyways visiting NY seems a long way now. Had I known that this Covid is going to be this bad I would have extended my last trip where in I missed the lockdown in nick of a time.

Yes I was in NY the last week of Feb 2020. I reached blr the beginning of March. I am so glad I didnt get infected in anyway. But it seemed just nick of a time.I flew down from NY only. I just missed NY terrible, horror experience in a nick of a time. Thank God for that. Usually NY is my last stop. My usual trip starts at North Carolina(HON head quarters and multiple business leaders sit over there) to Phoenix(1 business) and then to NJ(thats where my favourite business sits) and I always visit NY take a stroll around NY before I head back home. I wish some day I get to run the famous NY marathon and cross that last leg of Central park like everybody talks about. I did apply for the NY lottery but unfortunately it didnt get picked up in 2020, neither did my chicago marathon lottery got picked up. But anyways none of those races happened thats a different story. But someday I will run(if not run I will fucking crawl and reach finish line and other my 6 medal star). 

I always visit the central park I dont know just to feel the vibe and sense that someday I will fucking run the NY race lol. But ofcourse there are so many homeless people around, in someway it is scary but otherwise NY is always great to visit. The people in Manhattan especially late in the nights literally try to scare the shit out of you. This happened when we went to HRC NY and even though we were a bunch of like 5 people I still got scared. Central park is scary late in the evenings with lot of homeless people and drug addicts.

My all time fav in US will always be SFO, Shoreview(Minneapolis -all those 10,000 lakes) and then Frisco(Dallas). I did kind of like North carolina too atleast where Hon office is there it seemed really nice.

I love places with nature. Shoreview is an amazing place with utmost greenery and the only challenge is the extreme weather otherwise I would love to settle down over there. 

Anyways, with covid and considering the current situation long term travel seems a long way..hmm 

Oye btw, I did one nicest thing, I ordered a organic mango box with an intention that I will share it with my neighbours, I rapped them properly and kept it at their doorstep and told them to wash it properly and use it, Oh yes felt really good to do so. I thought sharing mangoes were ok during covid :)

When your apartment is sealed as containment Zone!

 APR is one of the known highly premium gated communities and  in Towers/Apartments there are so far 40 cases. I believe the villas count is around 70 -80. Suddenly BBMP came and made both towers and Villas a containment zone!  covid has now almost come to the doorstep. No maid, no cook, cant step out of the apt as per association rules, no running, limited essentials delivery. Basically, I am living in a jail.

Its very hectic to cook, clean and then make sure every parcel be it vegetables or any Big basket order needs to be double sanitized and veggies needs to be properly washed. My hands are all so dry with so much dish washing liquid and washing veggies. I am a bit scared to order food outside at this point so cooking has become a norm.  Like last year I need to get a hang of it. I tried so many dishes last year starting from all varieties of Pasta(Peso being my fav), baking, thai, mexican and so many varieties. I am just trying to stick to basics at this point now so I balance my nutrition. Done a lot of changes in this whole year in terms of life style by mostly trying to follow Ayurvedic methodology like finish dinner before sun set, Oil pulling, replaced all the daily consumption products with all the natural products like body soap, shampoos, desi cow ghee, cold pressed oils, organic lentils, organic veggies from farmizen or healthy buddha. I think one best thing about this lock down is a lot of change in my lifestyle. I replaced all my shampoo, conditioner, tooth paste, mosquito gels , disinfect liquids everything with all the natural products. Thanks to Fittuber I guess. Changed a lot in diet too. Good part is that there isnt much  change in my diet needed as I have always been a vegetarian through out my life except I eat eggs for about 10 years(My family didnt know for a long time, as eating eggs back home isnt allowed as we are pure Vegetarians ;). But I love my diet and am mostly going back to what I used to do eat in my child hood days. I Want to totally stop consuming gluten and milk, somehow unable to stop chai. I do love black coffee but one Chai is inevitable. Its mandatory to have a healthy diet during covid days.

Everything is going ok, sometimes I feel really bored being home all the time as I am fucking stuck at home for days now without even stepping out for my runs. It drives me nuts but no option at this point in time. Anyways there will be a nation wide lockdown so I better get used to it. I wish I had a nice company with me  (ya obviously a guy would have been better lol) what I meant is my friends. Tanu and me we almost talk everyday and we both keep saying that we miss those late night walks, those coffee times,swimming. Niharika, Tanu and myself used to be flatmates few years ago and it was a great company. We really had a good time. Those morning coffee or evening coffee  times with each other used to make so much difference. Tanu was mentioning that she wished lockdown was during those times not now. I want things to be normal.  Hopefully it will be soon.

My first ever So called "Relationship"

 There is sad news, anxiety everywhere. I want to totally talk something else. I realised one thing that I hadnt written everything about my life. May be its high time to write all those things and cherish forever.

Its been I believe 11 years my first ever serious relationship officially ended. Ofcourse I am way over it. It doesn't bother me as such. Ofcourse he is happily married with two kids I believe(sorry I am not stalking him but we are college friends so we have like some 40 common friends on FB so its inevitable,  we were ofcourse friends on Orkut. Infact all our epic love story started on orkut. he looks so old now LOL) I dont think I would have even gone on a date now:P.  But I believe he is a good human being one of the most emotional guys I have ever met only that he had some balls to stick to the promise but its ok doesnt really matter now :)

Actually you know why the thought of writing all my past came to my mind? Recently, I had been to my bff's house. We were just discussing something and she said some incident which I couldnt even remember it was so significant that "She had come to my home to talk to my parents" and she had stayed overnight. It was about Satyam's matter where my dad had called her up and some incident I couldn't even recall.

I was like "Wow half of the incidents I have already forgotten. Ofcourse there wasnt anything sweet about those incidents may be I wanted to forget them" atleast it has stopped bothering me. The only thing it bothers me in all these "I really felt guilty for my parents" they had to go through so much pain in all these. I still feel bad for them. But they didnt listen to me as well. They were forcing me to get me married off and omg it was such terrible times. I used to run away from home. I almost didnt go to my home town for an year. I think I kind of moved to US I just couldnt take all this. Thank God I dont have any such kind of extreme pressure now. Once in a while they still talk about it but then that kind of suffociating enviornment isnt there anymore.

 The biggest problem was "With the way I was good in studies, take control of my life in most things I do, they didnt expect that I would do anything like that I would choose the guy on my own" But in all fairness " I always decided what I want in my life. There were two things which was very clear that "1. I will only study what I love and I hated biology in my 12th and my dad wanted me to be a doctor and I didn't want to. So I chose engineering and the second most important thing is that " Whom I will marry". I also decided that I will only decide on that post I get a job till then I will never get into any of this. Even though I kind of had a crush on Satyam during college days. I never made any effort because I wanted to get placed in campus recruitment.

Now coming back to how it all started. Honestly, I dont even remember exactly. All I know that both our names started with "S" and I still remember his registration number was "72" and mine was "78"(wow my memory!) we used to be in the same lab sessions. The funny part was he never attended classes. He hardly attended labs too. I remember that his attendence was so less it  was some 13% as opposed to 85% it was on the lab notice period that if he doesnt get his parents to talk to the HOD they will not get entry to the exams in the 7th sem or 8th sem. He was one among few others on that notice period. I just looked at it and laughed. He was good in studies. He used to get descent marks not like topper stuff but good enough to impress me I guess. He was definitely not one of those guys who was seeking limelight in every bit in classes. Not even one of the soo called hot guys in the class. I still recall one of my best friend told me that the only way I remember Satyam is if he ever attended classes he would wear 1 shirt between 7:30 to 10:30 am (that means he just woke up  and rushed to the class straight from hostel dorm  not sure if he had even bruched lol) and we would get an hour break and when the 11:30 classes would start he would shower and then change and come back to class with different shirt LOL(keen observation by my bff .. LOL) I dont recall or never noticed.

I think it was one of those 7th semister seminars where you have to present as part of your curriculum. The presentation test will be 10 people each and 70-80 was one batch and that means we were in the same batch. We were waiting in the room for the lecturer to come and take up the presentation and I was shit scared to present even to 10 people. For some reason, the presentation session didnt happen and from no where Satyam walked up to me and started talking to me asking about my presentation prep and how his preparation is so bad. We just talked for few minutes I dont know the feeling was unimaginable, its like you wished for something I couldnt believe the butterflies in my stomach. That was the moment to cherish forever. I just couldnt feel my excitement but I still decided that I need to graduate from college first.  I think in 8th sem we hardly attended classes. It was just a name sake though, by then I think we were all placed.  

The next thing I remember is that every time we appear for the exams, we usually would be in the same room and he is like 5 people ahead of me. While writing exams he would just turn back and stare at me and I would look at him too. It was altogether a different feeling. We never said anything to each other but I loved it and I dont know about him though.  I still remember the last day of 8th sem exams. It was finally the end of college but the pain in my gut was unbearable. He was with his friends and I was with mine and both of us didnt say anything to each other but we used to just stare at each other. But I couldnt go tell him and neither did he make any effort. I went back home with mixed feelings that day. 

Ah! now one more incident I remember we had a send off party arranged for everybody, it was an evening dinner affair. This was before the 8th sem exams I guess and I was so excited and I really wore a nice saree and to my sheer disappointment he didnt show up  for the send off party. But anyways last day of the exam was even worse.

Then the million dollar question how did we meet. I should thank orkut for that. I dont know who sent request but we got connected to each other on orkut! Rest awaits.....