Life has to move on!

Break ups are hard . Trust me I feel miserable almost every day and every minute of it. I just want to just wait till I get better and feel better. Right now its pathetic. I wonder sometimes why am I like this? why is it so hard for me to first of all fall in love or start dating. Once I start lets say I like someone then its even more harder for me to move on. I dont know sometimes when you are so in love and you do so much to make it work and you get frustrated when things dont work out.. This low period is ON! I cant login to anymore social media now. The thought of him standing next to someone creates a pain in my gut . Look, I am really not jealous and I am happy for him but the pain is real. But what do I say, If you are going to do the crime you better do the time 

Also, I so happened to bump into this gtalk archives 10 years ago with one of my I would say Ex - boss.

I felt so nostalgic to read and I still wonder how I ever got over my first ever bf and but it doesnt bother me anymore. May be it would take another 10 years to get over this as well:

Hutchinson, Dallas [9:23 AM]:

whats up Carnegie

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:23 AM]:

Hey Chase...

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:24 AM]:

just a sec

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:25 AM]:

yep...

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:25 AM]:

Carnegie eh?

Hutchinson, Dallas [9:25 AM]:

yeah, i think that one's fitting...

Hutchinson, Dallas [9:25 AM]:

plus its cute right?

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:25 AM]:

hehe..u seem to be giving me  diff  name everyday

Hutchinson, Dallas [9:26 AM]:

well, a misspelling of a name isn't exactly a nickname

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:26 AM]:

it is

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:26 AM]:

i mean

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:26 AM]:

i siad diff name

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:26 AM]:

said*

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:27 AM]:

am fine with Carnegie...

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:27 AM]:

btw i am going back to india on 28th

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:27 AM]:

 

Hutchinson, Dallas [9:27 AM]:

really?  that stinks

Hutchinson, Dallas [9:27 AM]:

you should try and stay on

Hutchinson, Dallas [9:28 AM]:

we were really close to bringing you on as an analyst to replace Aruna

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:28 AM]:

I wish i could have stayed back

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:28 AM]:

but nothing is in my hands na

Hutchinson, Dallas [9:28 AM]:

I dont know what happened on that though... kinda stopped... plus Chuy isn't keen on losing you.. .ha

Hutchinson, Dallas [9:29 AM]:

he's been impressed

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:30 AM]:

but then..i dont know

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:30 AM]:

i kinda settled down 

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:30 AM]:

everything bhoom...

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:30 AM]:

need to just go back...

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:30 AM]:

worst of all this is

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:30 AM]:

satyam is coming here for his studies

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:30 AM]:

satyam(his name)

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:30 AM]:

am just going back

Hutchinson, Dallas [9:31 AM]:

his name is Satyam?  wow... thats easy to remember... they used to be our HCL... ha

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:31 AM]:

lol....u can only remember his first name  

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:31 AM]:

his last name is tough

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:32 AM]:

btw u feel it easy coz of SATYAM company scandal stuffs

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:32 AM]:

 

Hutchinson, Dallas [9:32 AM]:

yeah, I'm kind of a jerk when it comes to full Indian names... they are wayyyyy to hard, so I always shorten then

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:32 AM]:

dont worry...same with me in American names not soo good at pronouncing them  

Hutchinson, Dallas [9:33 AM]:

as long as you remember which name is the first name, you're set

Hutchinson, Dallas [9:33 AM]:

Rama hasn't caught onto that yet  

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:33 AM]:

hehe..

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:34 AM]:

its like Satyam was too busy with his work and his GMAT stuffs

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:34 AM]:

we hardly had relaxed in last 2 years...

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:35 AM]:

i thought atleast here

Nyanamurthy, Sowmya [9:35 AM]:

we will have a good time

Time just flies and I wish it just flies so that I dont have to be feeling this shitty anymore. I also feel that I am done with guys. I cant go through this vicious cycle of going through this break ups again and again. I would rather be happy and not bother anymore.