When I was in Houston, I had my own things going on with my relationship. I infact moved to US much before Satyam came over to US for his MBA. I told him that I was there and asked him we should meet. He had cut me off totally because he didnt get a good CAT score the third time, he was upset about it the day results came. He came to meet me, I had got him a gift and he didnt take it and I was little upset and he really wanted to have Sex with me that day. I was already upset that with so much effort I had got him a gift and he didnt take it. Its not that we never got involved physically, he is the first person I really had my first kiss with. Ofcourse the relationship was great. We were 22 and so much attracted to each other. We would go on long drives spend the whole night clinging on to each other. Its quite natural to be involved romantically. But that day he really wanted to have sex with me. We had never done it. Its not that I didnt want to have sex with him, its just that I wanted him to be sure that he should be open to the idea that he will talk to his parents. Somehow he kept denying it and he used to give me lame excuses and I was tired of lame excuses, I needed assurance from him. I never forced him to do it right away I told him I need that assurance whenever that happens. I was madly attracted to him why would I not have sex with him? He was extremely romantic, passionate. But somehow something was stopping me not to have sex with him that day for multiple reasons.
That day he came over to my place, he sounded that he was in a bad mood. There was a huge mental block in my mind when he said shall I go get condoms? I said lets have a proper commitment to each other before we get to the third base, I dont know I just said it from no where. worst part was I was a little scared of sex and being a women it is painful first time. But he really got upset that day. When we had started dating him he wanted to kiss me every time we met and had attempted so many times. It took sometime for me to let him do that. I always do that with men its not that I dont want to sleep with them. Its just that I want to be sure of myself and when I allow them it means there is no turning back thats how I am.
Anyways, when he didnt get good CAT score, he started focusing on GMAT. I thought I shouldn't disturb him and give him enough time. Then in between he would reach out to me and suddenly he would say he wants to meet me and then I dont know Men are so weird and he would change his mind and give me a lame excuse. Anyways, I focused on moving to the US by working really hard. Somehow I got a chance to travel as a replacement for my boss's wife as they were coming back to India for vacation for 2 months. I worked really hard and made sure that client was really happy about it and that annoyed my boss's wife and she was insecure that client is liking my work. Anyways, later I was offered a better role than her role by the client which annoyed my boss and his wife. I had to deal with all this shit while working in US. Satyam was not at all showing interest to meet me. I was going through a lot. In all this, there was another guy who created a huge nonsense. I did have couple of good friends while I was working in US and Sumit did have a crush on me but I never liked him like that. So he kind of understood and I told him not to waste his time on me and consider arrange marriage proposal and move on with it. Then there was this other nonsense guy. I have never met him and never spoken to him in the whole of my work over there. God knows who created what gossip among men and one day he walked into my apartment and started creating a huge drama. I was least interested and I didnt know this asshole. Later, when I came back to India and worked in Infy, I dont know how he got my number, he called me and I had to block him.
Why am I talking about this asshole? I recently spoke to Sumit and it was usually about work and suddenly Sumit said to me that asshole asked about me. I told I am least interested about him and dont discuss anything about me to him.
I just hope he is not checking my blogs or googling me in anyway. I definitely know how to deal with him but the last thing I want to do is waste my precious time and energy is to deal with such bugs.
Its a different thing that you went on a date or you dated , or you were in a relationship or anything. But I had not even spoken to him while I was working at my client location because I never liked him so I totally stayed away from him and such a mess he created. The last thing as I said is to waste my energy on such kind of useless people.
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