Finally, I started running. I decided that its high time that I need to get the fuck out and start running. I decided no matter what I will not miss running. So far, I have been regular to running. I love running. I run because its a liberation, it releases the endorphins(which usually referred to as runner's high). The feeling post run is definitely much more optimistic. Sometimes it gives you a feeling that you can do anything(conquer the whole world). Of course, if you end up having injuries its altogether a different story in itself and you will feel why the hell did you start running in the first place. But there is satisfaction in pain.

But I have seen that it is mentally very disturbing for most runners if they cant run due to long work hours or they are going through the injury phase. To them running is an addiction.

Ok now, I have been on and off on these dating apps and matrimony apps and its sometimes just really makes me so disappointing. For a change, I came across this guy's profile sometime ago on bumble. I really dont know but his trekking pics really looked interesting. There was not much details on the profile except for the fact that he was having few trekking pics. I kind of found his profile interesting.

At least his name was available. As a woman I always do background check on guys to make sure that am not running into some security issues. So I found his Insta profile, it seemed legitimate and I pinged him. Anyways, there was no response for almost a month.After a month he sent me a request on Insta. I pinged him complimenting on his himalayan trekking pics and then again no response. Later one day he abruptly removed me from Insta. Men are freaking so confused :D and they dont know what exactly are they looking for I guess lol.

Basically, going through his profile gave me a confidence that there are fairly good guys over there and genuine ones too. I kind of almost given up that there are no good guys left right now in India and also nothing was working out personally I had plans to move back to US and grow at least on the work front and work is keeping me busy. Also, when it comes to running or any kind of external activity the infra is any day better in US. But I will continue to pursue that option but covid has made this option a literally tough one. I will try my level best on that front. My current company is moving all the roles from US to India and there are not much chances at this point but lets see.

Apparently, this month has been extremely busy again travelling with mom to Kashi, tirupathi, palamner. Also, had a great time with family. Thank God for all the strength you have given me. I feel I am healing slowly.