Friday, February 19, 2021

 I am glad that I could meet  my college friends over the weekend. We have been friends for like 19 years I would say. We all met in 2002 at our engineering college. 

We went to one of my friend's farmhouse which she had been inviting. It has been a mad house with 6 kids(each with 2, zero from me lol). We had a great time. We hardly slept for those 3 days because the only time kids sleep in the night we could catch up with each other with drinks and stuffs.

It is so amazing to have friends whom you know for this long and they literally know everything about you. I just started thinking about our college times with them. There were so many amazing times and we have equally shared our sorrows with all of us. The research says if you retain your friendship beyond  7 years which means they are no more your friends, they are your family. 

Memories in those 19 years are unbelievable. Those memories when one of us fell down terribly during college days, I still remember that when I got placed first in the group, though they were so supportive of me inspite of they still waiting to get placed. It was the same friends when my first ever serious relationship broke with my college mate, they sat with me and literally shared tears with me. I still cant get over those times. 

I had just come back from my onsite assignment it was just that one year assignment was over and though the initial assignment was for a month or two the assignment got extended I was so happy. I was determined to stay back in US because my then boy friend was to come to US for his MBA and I wanted to make sure we are in US together. My parents already knew about this relationship like any other Indian family they were dead against it and the day today drama was going on. My parents literally thought that I moved to US and got married to him and never coming back (LOL). Though  I was honest to my parents about my relationship there was no plan of getting married without them. But the guy whom I was dating was all quiet when we were in a relationship(honestly, that was one of the best relationship I ever had because he was very emotional, understanding, very very smart, extremely talented, knew what he wanted out of life, he was determined to do his MBA and was so into cracking GMAT and infact he got one of the best scores. I knew he is going to be in US and I made sure that I will go, infact I travelled to US before him. Unfortunately, things didnt go well and he was not at all ready to take it the next level by discussing with his parents.  After an year, in the mean time when my assignment got over I was not in mood to move back but I had to. The good part of this trip was I knew I had started enjoying the US life and I had L1-B back then and I decided that I will travel back with H1-B and within 2 years I travelled back to US with my H1 through different employer. 

Anyways, when I came back from US after an year, these friends called me and got to know that I am in India, they said they wanted to catch up, we all met at one of my friends place. We all started crying. She told me that my dad called me and literally had an emotional breakdown with my friend saying that if she is hung up on marrying this guy we are ok just that the wedding should happen in our tradition. My friend without even me knowing she reached out to this guy who was in US and till now I have no idea what conversation she had with him. Because we all had studied together she had access to this guy and she spoke to him. That was the end of it. I wished him good luck and I told him that I will block him and I blocked him that day. It was one of the toughest periods of my life and these people were there for me.

Ofcourse we have had our own ups and downs in friendship but the beauty of it is to talk it over and get things sorted out. I am sure this friendship will never end and it will continue forever :)

While we were in the farmhouse finally on sunday night we were able to get sometime for each other

Friday, February 12, 2021

 Love is a beautiful thing and its like a drug provided its working out well.

Trust me experiencing love is a beautiful thing, every moment is magical. Its like an endorphin or a drug which always keeps you on high. Runners usually  talk about "Runner's high" But  "Love keeps you high".

"Everything happens for a reason, we are all being protected by universe". These people are usually women and these women are usually sorting through a break up. It seems men can get out of relationship without a goodbye, but apparently women either have to get married or learn something. Do we search for a lesson or lessen the pain. 

"Keep it light, dont get too involved, dont get too hurt" should be the mantra for women.

These are the dialogues from "Sex and the city series" just apt, dont know why


Anyways, while after our first date I was so interested in him that I worked out everyday with the motivation that I have to be in the best of the shape and I have to look awesome for the next date. I made sure that I constantly get him notified by posting pics tagging my coach so that he gets to see me and my posts because I didnt want to add him on FB till we were really sure and official. The next time we got to see each other a week before one of the races while he was practicing with his team. Infact it was my coach at that time  who also used to train with him . Apparently my coach and him were training with the same run club. My coach insisted that I go to the stadium with him that way my cycle for that week to get up really early before the race will be ok. I was initially kind of hesitant to go but later my coach convinced me and I was ofcourse looking forward to meet this guy and I was excited about that part. I planned what to wear to the stadium so that I look nice and hot. While during his training we got a glimpse of each other and both of us ignored each other. I made sure he notices me and am sure he did notice me. Ofcourse he was looking extremely hot and sexy. Of all the 30-40 running in the track with all those chaos with different timings, my eyes were only on him. We didnt say anything to each other and that feeling of checking out each other out and still behaving as if you dont even know each other is the best part of the relationship and so exciting. 

Then, when I was back from the stadium, I messaged him that I did see him in the stadium and didnt want to disturb him while he was working out. Also, I remember one of the past encounters I had said Hi long ago at one of the runs in Jayanagar in one of the public running events he was a little shy or so and I didnt want to create the same scene. He replied as if he didn't notice me and anyone would know its a lie and we just exchanged our conversations about the upcoming race, wished each other good luck.

Post race we met and that was one of the best dates. We had great conversation and then he almost thought I am going home with him. Trust me, I really wanted to go but then I was so genuinely into him that I wasnt at all up for one night stand/casual. When I got into the car I could see that he was very disappointed at one point should I get out from the car or should drop him. My worry was if he gets into my car I wasnt sure if I can control I might even kiss him. It was all these thoughts and I really didnt want to do casual. The next day he openly told me that he wanted to take me home to his place! rest awaits.