Getting over you is the longest marathon I have been running! Part 1
21 September 2019
It was a Dec 31st 2017, for those who really don't have a companion, it's always kind of a little lonely feeling or a boring night to have thought of not being able to spend the new year's eve with the loved one. Anyways, I was there on FB started browsing the usual posts just to distract myself. As I browsed through the profiles something led to another and I ended up checking one guy's profile. He was a common friend on FB. I dont know honestly what made me look at his profile. May be it was the 31st Dec, may be it was my hunch, honestly I thank God that of all that I randomly bumped into it. I was curious about his profile, may be because it was the running. His profile seemed really interesting. He shared the same common passion as me which is basically fitness(running to be precise), seemed to have done solo trips just like me. Then I kind of felt its not a nice thing to stalk some random stranger's profile but something kept me curious about this profile. Then, I checked with this common friend on FB how he knows this guy.
Common friend: I think he is in my run club and never interacted much with him!
Me : Is he married or single any idea?( couldn't control the curiosity from my side :P)
Common friend: No idea.
Then my smart brain started working, if he was married he wouldn't have a shaadi profile or so. It was a wild guess, if I look for the guys in the age group based on his engineering pass out which is just same year as mine and then location as our current location, I might get lucky. I also found out that from his FB account his mother tongue( Uff so much brainstorming!, I should work for CIA or CBI,lol, trust me it took few hours) , Voila, I found his profile over there on shaadi(Thank God!!, he was single). But the funny part was looking at his profile, it looked very very old, the pics which were there on Shaadi and what I saw on FB it was like a major transformation. So here I am on december 31st, literally stalking someone's profile. I dont know it was the holiday season, wanting to be with someone!. But i didnt send any request, the next best thing was to find out what if he is committed/engaged then there is no point. I also wanted to do more research about awareness of the guy that, trust me i have found terrible cases about the guys so i wanted to be more sure about this guy before I wanted to approach. Also, I always felt women reaching out to men is always a major turn off to men. So was a bit confused as to how to proceed further. Anyways, I had a new year's eve that day night so before i wanted to get ready for the party, I wanted to take a call whether to reach out to this guy or not. So, the next few hours I started googling about this guy. There I found, I found his blog, which he had last written was sometime in 2014. But I picked up randomly one of the blogs of the so many blogs he had written. When I started reading his blogs, I couldnt stop myself from reading more and more(trust me, I have read his blogs multiple times). I decided that whether it works out or not, I wanted to take a plunge reaching out to him and I did it!
Anyways, this is history, getting over you hasn't been so easy and I have already lost you. I thought may be writing over here would help me get over and I have nothing to loose as I have already lost you!
Running is my passion and I love running. Hey! am not one of the greatest runners out there, I run because I simply enjoy the joy of running.
Why is love hurtful? Why is it so hard to get over. It's just getting tougher and tougher by the day. I try my level best not to think about you but the more I try it but I fail. I just login to my work laptop, I connect to the VPN, it reminds me of you. I shouldn't have done those blunders. I regret everyday till date that I shouldn't have said what I said. We both have done mistakes and biggest blunders. I did a biggest blunder with you. If there is any way to take it back I could have done so. Hmm, its done, although its hard to accept but it is..
