Aug 2019
I know it’s exactly an year back, we were there in the same PVR cinemas, I felt it’s the same seats we had chosen to sit last year. But the only unfortunate thing is it’s not you who is sitting next to me. You remember, when you asked me to come down to your place on Thursday night so both of us could get some sleep ;-) I said let’s work from home on Friday and then let’s do something on a Friday night. You happily agreed to it. We decided that we will watch a movie on a Friday night. You had heard a very good review about this action – thriller movie of Tom cruise.
You know I just couldn’t wait to be with you, every minute away was hard. I don’t know I just wanted to be around you. It was the most beautiful morning of my life, the next day. I really wanted to book that Tom cruise movie for us and I loved that when I asked you if you are ok with those seats which I showed it to you, you happily agreed to it. I remember everything every minute of that day. I don’t remember those moments because I am force fitting them in my memory. These small moments are etched in my brain like there is no end tomorrow. It was one of the happiest mornings of my life which I had dreamt from last 8 months since the first time I had seen your profile. There was no end to my happiness. We had breakfast together, worked from home, in between you asked me if I am getting bored, how can I be bored when I just wanted was to have you around? I told you in between that I have to take a nap, I just dozed off for an hour and you also came later and took a power nap.You know those are such amazing moments for me just having you around?
Do you remember that moment when you asked me before you went to get veggies if I want to have any particular veggies for dinner, I loved you for that. I just wanted to hug you and never wanted to let you go.
You know inspite of all the shitty things which had happened in the last few days, the way you treated me and spending time with you is still the Silver lining in my life. Thank God for that.
But now, exactly one year later, things have turned upside down. You know it was such a heartbreaking moment to step into the same mall without you. I felt my heart was aching when I sat in those seats without you. I still remember, when I was sitting in the movie, you realised that I was shivering with cold due to AC. You realised that I am cold, during the intermission you said it will just take 4 minutes to go home and quickly grab a jacket and come. Oh man I felt I was the most luckiest girl at that moment I just wanted to kiss you then and there amongst people I just controlled myself not to kiss you. When we stepped out of the movie theatre, when the sheer ocean of wind blew towards us I suddenly held you so tightly you made sure I was warm, you made sure I am ok till we reached your apartment gate suddenly you pulled me away. I didn’t understand the reaction that moment I feel I know it now.
Now, after one year I can’t still believe where we stand with each other. It breaks my heart to even think and imagine the way you treated me when I last met you. I really don’t know what to say about it but I feel my heart is broken into million pieces. I now know that all this didn’t matter to you at all. I wish I could read how you felt and how I could fix . Every time I think about the way you treated me last time I just can’t get over the feeling that is it the same person whom I had met one year back. No matter what happened between us I still wish you good luck. No matter what happened between us I still believe deep down I know you are the best person I have ever met. You deserve to be happy. Lucky is that person who is gonna spend rest of her life with you. I wish things were turned out to be the best between us. But it’s over. I still wish you all the happiness in life. True love is all about wishing best to the loved ones. I definitely wish you a great happiness no matter how terribly it ended between us. I only thank God I gotta chance to spend time with you. Whatever happens I hope its the best for both us.
